mother dear (heavy metal)

Who gave you these smiles
who gave you this hope
who sheltered you
with her strength
who was she
and where is she now
more importantly
who are the ones
who took it all away
they are mean
they are base
they are fiends
as I break bread and eat
they devour a man's soul
Abaddon, Apollyon
they feast on flesh
it is dark
it is raining
evil is penetrating
it is time
little one
for the witching hour
it is time
lost one
to whimper, to cower
mother dear
your son is here
answer now
do you feel fear
mother dear
your prodigal son
has become
one of us.

stand tall

Your blatant lies
and your painted skies
only remind me
that I'm on my way home
your hollow touch
and your burning eyes
were the wrong thing
to feed my hungry soul
what a place to end up
there's shame in the shadows
even the windows cry
when the wind howls
even the walls know
that you won't stay here for long
what a way to end up
more a miracle than a man
more a blessing than a plan
there are words
that now escape me
but that's nothing new
there are faces
that now harass me
but to tell the truth
I can't remember their names

tomorrow when the sun comes up
I'll be ready and warned
I'll be fine and capable
I'll be pure and burning
before the belligerence begins
before disappointment sets in
before tongues wag
before I give in
before I fall
I will stand tall.

so long (face to face)

Does your conscience still say anything to you?
you have fallen down so far from what you knew
It's been so long that I can't believe I still remember
exactly how I used to be
It's not enough
of what you want
I've given up
It's come and gone
It's not enough
It's not enough
It's not enough
You've been running from your shadow in the hall
you've been hanging up your failure on the wall
Its been so long that I can't believe I still remember
exactly how you used to be
It's not enough
of what you want
you've given up
It's come and gone
not enough
It's not enough
It's not enough
It's not enough.

famous last words

There's a devil on my shoulder
he's smiling
and he's not so small
he tells me things I should know
like
you know that girl
she fucks like an animal
and when she gets off
sometimes she thinks of you
sometimes she can almost taste you
can almost feel you between her lips
can almost feel your ravenous hands
can almost feel you inside her
yeah, almost

I feel like I need a shower
every time I look at her
dirty girl you're so busy
going the wrong way
you never saw me
tearing after you
what a waste of time
what a waste of breath
you're just a waste
but I don't seem to mind
there's a lesson here
and I refuse to learn it
there's a summary
and I don't think I found it

dirty girl
keep your hands to yourself
I am a man increasingly
made of something else
I don't want you
I don't need you
I've bled and cried and bled some more
I've bled out every human trait
now I'm nothing
but a shell in a mirror
living the life of a machine
living and dying and trying
like you've never seen.