the lack of you

The lack of you
has forced me back into my corner
your warmth is just a memory
your eyes can't find me here
I bask in darkness and the horror
of my own company
I have murdered the television
silenced the stereo
turned the lights down low
There is a buzz in my ears
like the ocean in a seashell
it sounds so empty
There is a blackness outside
and it echoes the inside
I am the embodiment of creepy
and I feel the full weight of my discontent
I have lines to read
but no one to hear them
You can't go back
to living with no care
those who do have nothing to lose
I have one thing
but it means everything
that one thing
I fear one day
will break me
If you go before me
then leave a bullet for me
some chemicals are impossible to quit.