ephedrine

Looking at myself in the mirror
I'm a reprobate
disgusting, cold, mutilated
Sure, I've made some bad mistakes
but do I deserve this?
It's midnight
I've wasted another day
You can call me what you want
I stand on my own two feet
a free radical motherfucker
for the whole world to see
Do you see me
cackling through red lights
stabbing at my veins
sinning and swearing
through your streets tonight?
Holding out my hands for
more, more, more?
Do you know the score?
I don't care
I've never won anything in my life
I am a religion of self
I'm in a constant state of worship
I'm free
as long as I exist
as long as this
medicine is roaring
through my veins

All of my gods are dying
all of my teeth are showing
I keep thinking
this is the end
but tomorrow it begins again
Let me dance my strange dance
let me breathe this disappearing air
There was a time
when you let me do as I pleased
but now I know too much
now I'm tied down
now I'm fused with rust
to this broken machine
That which once made me burn
now sends shivers through my core
So I've gained a brand new lust
Stand back
and watch it consume me
Stand clear
while this house comes down.