promise land

I've run up to my borders
and have seen the promise land
it's not this living hell
this place where
the streets are paved with denial
the waters run cool with broken dreams
and in the night
everyone dreams among the shrieks and shudders
of permanent anxiety
I've cut out the middle man
between my vices and I
I've rent the sky in two
and have seen eternity
let me tell ya brother
I'm one misstep away
from joining those eternal ranks
and I don't mind
I've been gazing beyond this place
for so long
every day is a goodbye
my bags were packed
before you even knew my name
there's a shuttle running every minute
I'm ready to go
but you're not letting go of me
you keep telling me
no
today is not a day for goodbye
I keep straying and I keep saying
will you look at that sky
have you ever seen a better sky
to disappear into?