born again

There is a second life
beyond the point
you give up
you become unflinchingly alive
bored-out blasphemy
flapping in the wind
no cares
just guttural excitement

there is a constant scrutiny
of my bad intentions
there is a shadow war
I know I'm losing
everything is so complicated,
you see
everyone will judge
but not everyone will understand

there is truth
in my lame excuses
there are lies
poised behind these eyes
there are days
that bore right through me
if you're the type to judge
then do what you must
just remember
once they take me down
they're coming after you.