cold brook

Summer heat
staring out the blazing windows
yesterday
was nothing but rain
today it's just me
holed up here again
it's my fault I don't have any friends
I'm not blaming anyone else
I don't want anyone
to get this disease
another undersocialized, latch-key kid
thrown into the world unprepared
(such an unoriginal story)
another bored little misfit
trying hard not to burn the house down
I've tried many things
for many years
to keep myself buoyant
now I see
that I'm the one
keeping me down

summer heat
summer rain
lightning and thunder
brings it back to me again
there I am
riding my bike as fast as I can
knowing that I won't get home
before the storm overtakes me
knowing that it doesn't matter
no one knows where I am
and no one cares
that's the way it was
that's the way it is
you can contradict me
but you can't argue
with the still and burning air
you can't argue
with what I was
and what I've become
maybe you can find
that part of me
still waiting in the summer heat
for the storm to overcome me.