a cloud by day

Pardon me for believing
life shouldn't be this hard
pardon me for believing
in something bigger than me
pardon me
for even being alive

sometimes
these small towns
won't let you breathe
sometimes
they wound you
just to see you grieve
sometimes
they tear you asunder
just to pick through your bones
and shake their heads

what is life without resistance
logic without madness
the sun without the rain
pleasure without the contrast of pain
I've had enough, thank you
thank you for all the wounds
all the scars
all the affliction
directed at me
from so many fallen stars

every life is measured out
pain and perseverance
every one of us
will go through fire
if you look me in the eyes
you will see
that I've lost all desire

promises have no weight
they all sound like hate
and noise and everything unkind
I still have hope
and that's about it
I've reached out and touched
the tip of something moving over me
could it be
the answer is wrapped up
inside this mysterious thing
could it be
the answer was waiting for me
outside my little world of hate?