looking for you

How can so many ghosts
live in such a small house
It's just you and me
but it feels like an epic, a tragedy
How many nights will pass,
how many new days will come
and whimper away
How will we reverse this subversion
Where is the healing balm,
which words will satisfy
Which direction will propel us
from this moldering place
I don't wear a watch
because time has turned on me
I feel shattered,
hit below the belt
I am gasping,
grasping for anyone's hand
Looking for you
and your lying bedroom eyes
You and I are so far away
our pain has alienated us
our misery has made us strangers
The sun is full of ridicule
the breezes are cruel jokes
I am burned from within
So many years of deadfall
have fed this inferno
I wait for the healing rains
and the new life they bring.