paper doll

I've been trying to draw you close
for the longest time
but you just keep unraveling
my fucking line
You weren't meant to be kept
I get it
not by me
not by anyone
Your eyes have a wildness in them
your feet carry you swiftly away
always away from me
Whatever pulses in your veins
I know
it's nothing like what pulses in mine
You are made of something else
from the ground up
you were built with the rarest materials
You were nourished
never forgotten
never forsaken
What you are today
is everything that I was not
Is it this knowledge
that's driving me nuts
or is it something base and nameless?
You are perpetually free
frozen in my memory
etched in my corneas
I fill in the blanks
when you fall out of line
You have to exist that way
forever
you have to embody the way I never was.