tuesday blues

Loneliness has permeated
my substrate
and leached into my bones
I'm at the point
I don't feel anything
but desperation
I'm abandoned once again
like that kid waiting for a ride
that will never come
In these moments
my own thoughts
are enemies
and they're armed to the teeth
There is a price to pay
for freedom
a price to pay
for all my hard-won battles
and the will
to stand alone
I came so far
and deserted so much
just to find myself
once again
alone
Turning inward is out of the question
I've stormed those shores
every day of my life
I must abandon the abandonment
invade the invaders
these wounds can lick themselves
There are no reasons to persist
just the hands of the clock
and the sound of my name
in the mouth of a beautiful woman.