a new thing

Ground down and
burned out again
I keep wondering
when this is going to end
Eyes full of dust
and joints full of rust
I keep doing
what I think I must

How can I change my attitude
how can I keep my thoughts in line
when I have to swallow
such contempt, such hate
day after day?
I didn't pay to ride this train
so don't take my fucking picture
I didn't ask for your opinion
and you sure as hell
didn't ask for mine
I've gone beyond the point
where I can fight
just to get through the day
Now I'm just wondering
why there's nothing left for me--
just hungry mouths
lazy stomachs
asking for more

Everyone wants something
but I've cut myself so deep
so many times
I've rid myself of so much desire
that now I have become
inert, unfeeling, bored
So in this speck of time
this lonely moment in history
if you have the noise I'm missing
if you are out there
and you feel my need
then pour your sex
into my soul
bring me to my knees
with your love
shame me
with your power
destroy me
as I writhe on the floor
break me
til I bleed out the confusion
Overshadow and breed in me
a new thing.