stitched

I've noticed some things
in the morning light
some things
I didn't catch last night:
beer bottles by the sink
discarded clothes
your panties on my nightstand
my shirt inside-out
everything a little disheveled
unshaved in the mirror
I can't hide my amusement

we've been braided like this
for so long
I feel what you feel
and you bleed it back to me
we are stitched together
by greater hands than these
my body fails me
these hands are rude and cruel
but you feel my heart through them
speaking right through

you've memorized your lines
like I asked you to
repeated them on time
locked me in
to your little world
told me to go nowhere
to think nothing
outside of here
and I did
what I was told to do
put myself right inside of you

I used to think
I could handle the danger
of life without you
but you know
I'd be a fool
to embrace anyone but you

that's the nature of addiction
you and I both know
I could never leave
and if I did
I would only
look for another one like you.