the price I pay

Your face is pornography
or something like it
How I want to crush you
where you lay
break you up
and carry you with me
I want to melt you down
into purer parts
burn off the dross
stand alone with you
What is the price I pay
for this time with you?
What is the temptation worth?
Murder is the price--
I pay it every day
I put feet in these shoes
The days flare by in whites and blues
burning both ends now--
too much to drink
not enough sleep
too many voices
crowding in on me
Again, ask me
what is the price I pay?
It's everything
you, me and peace
at the end of the street
Nothing is left
but hangovers and rage
nothing is left
but the bliss in your eyes
when we finally meet

You think that suicide
takes balls, boy?
Endure this endless loneliness
come back and tell me
what you think
This is it--
a roar inside is all I need
your eyes, your lips
so wet, so open
so enamored with what you see
Let me take you apart
stick my fingers
where they don't belong
Who am I to judge?
I've done everything I shouldn't
Who are you to disagree?
you're only everything I need
You are the girl
with the rebellious hair
I fell in love with
You are the one
who still waits for me
on the other side
of so many nightmares.