such heat

There's so much noise
in this empty room
there are too many
prying ears and eyes
waiting just outside
I've spent so many years
building up my immunity
to all of you
I've forgotten what it's like
to live without care
to inhale without tasting fear
You crashed on my surface,
sputtered and splintered
into such pretty, shiny shards
You made sense to me
your brokenness melted
everything between us
You were a meteorite,
and you were dying on my shores
Such heat, such force
I could not ignore
my craters, my scars
bear witness to a burning past
If any of you were there
do you remember me?
the way I was
cannot be rectified
but I'm holding out my hands
under the heavens tonight
and I'm waiting patiently
for another direct hit,
a hot and angry message from another place
to make me remember
how it feels to race headlong and strong
and how I've strayed
from such simple truths.