ten feet tall

If I do it again
she gains more power
If I write these words
she grows bigger
That little girl has no idea
she's ten feet tall
I cringe, I burn
the closer she gets
Little does she know
she's become a menace
This silent war
is my own making
and it has no end
This silent war
rages only when she is near
On some level
does she know,
could she know?
My only hope is to understand
this mechanism compelling me
before I lose all control
I have to know
how it works
and why I can't face it
or walk away
It sits between the two
mocking me
She's an unreality I have fostered
but now she wants everything.